Like this:

Here I am falling
Every second crawling
I just want to hit the ground
But the bottom can’t be found
Instead, I hit each branch, every rock
Knowing again I’ll never walk
I can’t see a reason for the pain
But the storm thunders, continues to rain
Lightning shoots up in the sky
As I’m falling, I ask “WHY?”
I hit my head, all goes black
Temporary relief from the attack
When I awake my body aches
I question all of my mistakes
At last the ground appears
But it brings about new fears
I cannot move, the pains too great
It seems to be justified fate
Forgotten, forsaken
Waiting to be taken
I cry out into the night
Praying I’ll see a light*
But the darkness overtook me
No hope in sight, all was empty
I began to hate my life
My mind wishing I had a knife
Inside there arose this fear
About a punishment severe
For after death there must be more
I can’t ignore eternity anymore
But the pain had overtaken my soul
I was losing all control
Hopeless, Helpless
My life, a mess
Nowhere left to turn
No ability to discern
Black from white
Blindness from sight
I’m just a waste of space
A typical lifeless disgrace
No strength left to stand
Left with ruined plans
My life is like a puzzle
Scattered across the floor
My life is like a vase
Shattered against the door
There are pieces everywhere
It will never be repaired
Then there was a light
A ray of hope came into sight
A man of care and love
A messenger from above
Helped me pick up the pieces
Slowly the pain decreases
The healing has begun
Years before it’s done
But it is worth it in the end
Cuz my life is not pretend
Although it will take time to heal
For once I am one-hundred percent real
And I’m not falling anymore
My life so different then before
There is a love inside of me
I view life so differently
I have a smile on my face
A heart-change has taken place
And I’m never going back again

© Travis Logan 11/16/07; 02/27/08

*Everything preceding this point was written this past November of 2007. Everything after was written in February of 2008

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